I'm going to start a new blog soon in the spirit of HIGH SCHOOL, but for now:

A P P E A R A N C E (:

[x] I am shorter than 5'4
[x] I have some scars.
[x] I tan easily
[/] I wish my hair was a different color. (eh, sometimes)
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance. (oh, I wish this would go away.)
[ ] I wear sunglasses
[ ] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

H E A L T H (:

[/] I've gotten stitches. (I don't know, I think they're just scars, but my heel "fell off" when I was in the ICU as a baby o_o)
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend. (coincidence run-in)
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I've had serious surgery. (the crazy stuff when I was born)
[ ] I've had chicken pox.

T R A V E L I N G (:

[x] I've driven/rode over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[x] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've been to Korea.
[x] I've been to China.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras.
[x] I've been to the Caribbean.
[x] I've been to Hawaii.

E X P E R I E N C E S (:

[x] I've gotten lost in the city
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[ ] I've crashed a car
[x] I've been skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've caught a snowflake or snow on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding

D E A T H ):

[x] I hate funerals. (they make me terribly sad)
[ ] I've seen someone dying.


M A T E R I A L I S M (:

[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs
[x] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga
[ ] I own something from Hollister.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie. (potential fake, does it still count?)

P A R E N T S (:

[x] You can have more than 2 people over. (but it's very uncommon.)
[x] You have to get high grades.
[ ] You always get grounded .
[ ] Your mother worries too much about you.
[ ] You can't have your door closed
[x] You get respect
[x] Your father trusts you (??)
[ ] Your mother trusts you

R A N D O M (:

[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[/] I open up to others easily. (it's all relative)
[ ] I watch the news.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[/] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone
[/] I am a sports fanatic
[x] I twirl my hair.
[x] I care about grammar.
[ ] I have my cell phone number in my screen name.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[/] I bake.
[x] My favorite color is either white, pink, red, black, purple, orange, yellow, or green.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school. (Spirit Days anyone?)
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food Daily.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish. (Alana knows this and abuses this power frequently)
[x] I like white chocolate.
[/] I bite my nails. (I did but then I got braces)
[/] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] My answers were totally honest

T H I S . Y E A R (:

1. Have you had your birthday
Yeah.

5. Pulled an all nighter?
Yep.

6. Drank Starbucks?
Loadsa times.

7. Went Camping?
Nope. 

8. Bought something?
Quite a few somethings.

9. Met someone special?
Yes...but it didn't really go anywhere seeing as he lives in Oregon :/

10. Been out of state/province?
Definitely.

11. Gone Snowboarding?
No :(

12. What are you thinking about?
That pesky WMTA Judged Recital tomorrow and my serious chances at winning MTNA.

13. Hugged someone?
Many people, many times.

14. Slept in someone else's bed?
Yes. (mind you, not with someone else)

15. Hidden from people?
Yes, I hid away in my closet.

16. Last Person you talked to?
Mom.

17. Last Person to Text you?
Dylan.

18. Who was the last person you danced with ?
Maksym - we were both so awkward about it, XD.

19. Who did you last yell at?
My mom - I need to control my small irks with her.

20. What did you do today?
Facebook, email, texting, piano, drawing, homework (barely), YouTube...

T E N . F A C T S (:

1. Hometown? Arlington
2. Natural hair color ? Appears black, but really almost golden brown in sunlight.
3. Initials? JCSXM
4. Hair style? Short and choppy, as of now.
5. Eye color? Brown (fairly light for a Chinese, according to Jung)
6. Height? 5'2.5"
7. Any Pets? Not anymore :(
8. Mood? Meh.
9. Where would you rather be? For once, at school.
10. Last thing you drank? Milk!


W H O . D I D . Y O U . M O S T . R E C E N T L Y (:

1. Hang out with? Dylan, Dylan's friend who I don't remember the name of, Tommy, Anthony, JC, Olivia, Yana, Kenny.
2. Ride in a car with? Xu and his dad.
3. Watch a movie with? Indiana Piano Academy people - Karate Kid trip YAY!
4. Go to the mall with? Mom.
5. Talk on the phone with? Aunt Peggy.
6. Laugh with? All of the listed people at #1.
7. Have a fight with? Mom, short little fights.

A N S W E R . T R U T H F U L L Y . (:

1. Do you like anyone? Not sure.
2. Sun or moon? Both :)
3. Winter or Autumn? Autumn.
4. Left or Right? Left :D. Naturally leftie. But my Kindergarten teacher forced me to RH. :(
5. 10 acquaintances or two best friends? Two BFFs.
6. Sunny or rainy? Don't get me wrong, I love getting super wet in torrential downpours, but I like the sun a lot.


A B O U T . Y O U. (:

1. What time is it? 00:01
2. Full name? Should I really say?
3. Where do you wanna live? Seattle :). Or Canada. Or Australia. Or Korea. Hmm.
4. How many kids do you want? Maybe 2 of my own, no idea yet.
5. Do you want to get married? Of course.
6. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? Slurp, and who cuts their spaghetti??
7. Do you like chocolate? No duh :P
8. Favorite ice cream? Vanilla bean nomnomnom

So, my lovely loyal blog-readers, it is June 12th. [No more stressing about happiness deadline, hooray!]

 I'm not going to be cliche, but seriously, although I haven't really achieved all that I wanted to, I realized that I learned a lot from this year. Especially about myself.

I've learned that:

a) I'm selfish

b) I lie to my family too much

c) I am extremely self-conscious even though I hide it, even from myself

But I also realized that I can change these things. I've learned how to be more uninhibited by self-consciousness and how to be a better friend.
Even though I've lost a lot of things this year, I've found the positive side to all of the bad things.

In the end, this post wasn't as philosophical as I wanted it to be, but I think I got my point across.

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I'm happy today, I think. Mom bought me a really cute dress -insert feminine happy flail here- :] and I just feel all sentimental at the moment.

HAPPINESS DEADLINE: 0 days bah who cares

Okay so I'm sorry I've been emo/bitchy recently. Having problems with my self-image does not entitle me to be bitchy to everyone and I'm really really sorry.

:(

I feel really bad. I had like major crazy emo shieeett this weekend because I got into a fight with my sister about something stupid, and then I got pissed at myself for starting a stupid argument, and then I started hitting my head against the wall because I had such a bad headache, which resulted in a bigger headache, so I went to the backyard to get some fresh air, but then I saw the bench and it reminded me of Toby because we were back there once talking about something random, and then I started crying because I hated myself so much I was being an emo bitch, and I realized how much of an idiot I am, and how I screw up everything, and bleh.

Yeah, so I get really stupid over the weekends. It results in MAJOR RUNON SENTENCE SPAM on mondays. (see previous paragraph.)

I'm tired.

:D?

I don't really know what to talk about and I should be doing homework and a lot of drawing but I'm just too lazy...See? that's something else I hate about myself. I can't get myself to work at times when I need to. WTF.

Shut up, Jess. NOBODY WANTS TO READ YOUR HALF-ASSED BLOG POSTS

HAPPINESS DEADLINE: 5 days [holy SHIT that's soon]

Uhm, yeah, so I've been totally lazy this weekend.

[Not really, actually. I have legit reasons for why I'm up this late.] 

Okay, well, kinda. And FYI, this is how I talk when I'm sleep deprived: I argue with myself. 

Shut up, Jess. What the fk?

ANYWAY. SO. Saturday was spent on piano and Pyeong Hwa sesshing and helping mom pack/cook. The usual stuffs. 

Sunday morning, mom left for China and Christine left for work so I had three hours to myself. Those were the lazy hours, lul. I was playing Pokemon and doodling and singing while in the shower studying for my World Geo Final. :D [Oh shit, I should probably do that...] When Christine came BACK from work I wasted more time YAY and then by 5PM I was at Alana's for her sleepover/bday party thing.

I was kinda freaking out about going because I haven't been to a legitimate sleepover since like 3rd or 2nd grade and all I could think of were those stereotypical teenage female sleepovers where you gossip and do your hair/makeup and play truth or dare, etc.

However, it turned out to be much much much better. :D We played some badminton, ate pizza, walked to CVS and bought blue hair dye, got some ice cream, streaked my hair, Mari's hair, Alana's hair, and Cassie's hair blue, played charades, and fell asleep at 1ish. :)
sadface, though. The blue doesn't show in my hair because my natural color is so freaking dark. :( Alana's shows up in the sun and Cassie's looks amazing but she had hers bleached so mehh. idk about Mari. Meh, who knows? Mine might be there when I'm in the sun, but idk because I can't really look at my own hair haha.

BLEH  SO TODAY I WASTED TIME AGAIN. :( Yay laziness?
I started homework at around 8PM but multitasking and procrastination has led me to blogging at 2AM about my wonderfully boring life. HOORAY!

I actually only have one more homework assignment to do, but nerrr. It's my English narrative editing thing, and I really don't want to, even though I have a B in that class and B = Asian failing so my mom is probably going to kill me OMGAHHH.

Should probably get to work on that.

WAIT BEFORE I GO

I need to say something really quick :O

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SUSPENSE XD

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I'm trying out for TJ Varsity Dance Team! :)

Yeah, okay, it's probably going to be all sluts on the team, and I'm probably not girly enough, but fuck it, I like dancing. I might have some time scheduling problems though, so idk if I can even try out because it's this Wednesday and Thursday at like 4:30-6:30 PM and I might not be able to get a ride soon enough.

SIIIGGGGHHH. :/

Off to write that narrative, Jess. MUSH DOGGY MUSH

 err. yeah. I'm weird at night. 

HAPPINESS DEADLINE: 11 days

jsyk, I haven't had any coffee for months. Don't yell at me about caffeine. *hides in corner*

Things I am doing:

• drawing
• listening to REAL MUSIC, aka anything that is not Justin Bieber/Miley Cyrus/JoBros...you get the point, haha
• video chatting with old buddies that I haven't talked to for forevarz :D

Things I don't have to worry about:

• mom
• homework
• piano (for now)

:)

Currently drawing:

• pokemanz? :D
• Natalia's fursona
• Tess' punk rock chicks/anti-marriage huntresses (EPIWIN <3)
• possibly a manga Fred

Stuff I'm trying not to think about:

• new repertoire for piano and how I should be getting a head start on it
• exboyf. duh. :/
• long term homework assignments due soon
• cooking dinner for the next two weeks [mom's in China, yay?]

HAPPINESS DEADLINE: 20 days